Hey guys! I know I haven’t been that active here lately, and yes I also know I’m not obligated to be perfect in running my blog. But I thought I might share how my life is going so far. I’m currently in a book reading rut right now and admittedly, I haven’t tried doing anything to get out of it. I have recently been diagnosed with adult ADHD (to my relief) because I finally have an explanation for the things I’ve been experiencing since I was younger.
Even in my earliest memories I’ve always been severely distracted, not paid enough attention. I have also always made the silliest mistakes because of my lack of focus, which also made me lose things like crazy and not have enough concentration to remember a lot of things. There’s still a lot of symptoms that I’ve been experiencing ever since that I just chalked up to basically not trying hard enough and even because of the poorness of how I took care of myself.
This has also been the main reason I developed depression and anxiety in the first place, seemingly out of nowhere. I was having a hard time coping with life in general and everything overwhelmed me. I didn’t do that bad at school because I became adept at memorizing information right before an exam and regurgitating it during and then completely forgetting it afterwards. It’s not the most efficient and not the best but that was how I managed. Add the fact that nobody thought something was up with me and they kept on blaming it on me.
To my relief, there was an explanation. I am currently taking medication for it and the difference is like night and day. I still have to go to therapy to undo my bad habits that I accumulated as a coping strategy but it is better than going there to stop myself from killing myself.
Because of all this, all the months of disorganization with regards to my life and even with this blog has piled up and while I am slowly straightening things out, it’s still a lot of things to make sure I get to and right now I just don’t feel like this is the biggest priority. I’ll get back to it. I just have to take things one step at a time. This year has been good to me so far and I can’t wait to see what it has in store for me.
How are you guys? Is the new year treating you well?
Lots of love,